Billions upon billions. Breath after breath. Experience after experience. It's enough to make my mind over heat and begin to melt if I think about it long enough!! The thought, the realization, that there are billions of lives being lived in this very moment...each by a person whose story and life is as legitimate as mine. They breathe, they think, they live, they laugh(hopefully), they cry, they struggle for existence.
Each person then encompasses at least thousands of experiences, memories, and stories. That's probably a really low estimate. I'm thinking more like millions, billions.
THEN there are soooo many galaxies, planets, stars, crazy mysteries, and hidden secrets that we have yet to discover. And in the midst of that bigness there we are. Tiny little people. Crazy and beautiful. I know none of these are truly new thoughts. I've been guilty of mulling it over time and time before, but somehow...it always comes back to me.
I think what has rocked my world the most this week was thinking about being 25 and where I was three years ago and how I never ever ever could have guessed where I would be three years later. I felt quite old for a moment and felt like I have aged about 15 years in only 3...and then I started thinking about my future and wondering what it looks like. I have no idea about mine. Do you know about yours? Like, even though there is no way for us to know unless God reveals it to us supernaturally, we still fret and plan and try to make it turn out the way we would like.
Plans aren't necessarily a bad thing, although when taken outside of faith and in a control mentality they certainly can be. I just see a big question mark when I look at my future. I think I know what's coming next, I think that I'm moving in a couple of months, I think that my boyfriend is coming soon to visit, but what do I know?
You know how in life you go through those times where you kinda get scared because things are starting to go the way you didn't dare to hope or dream? I'm in that moment now, and I start just waiting for the bubble to pop. (not what the doctor ordered, so I don't suggest you try it!) But, I don't want to live that way, I want to live believing that good things truly could be in store in my life...that I could live a full life on this earth, with adventure, love, and stories...but we don't really know! Everyone's story is written so differently. Oh the mystery! Only time will tell :)
So without further ado, I guess what's left is to dream away, plan if you feel led, but don't worry, and enjoy the story as it unfolds.
Each person then encompasses at least thousands of experiences, memories, and stories. That's probably a really low estimate. I'm thinking more like millions, billions.
THEN there are soooo many galaxies, planets, stars, crazy mysteries, and hidden secrets that we have yet to discover. And in the midst of that bigness there we are. Tiny little people. Crazy and beautiful. I know none of these are truly new thoughts. I've been guilty of mulling it over time and time before, but somehow...it always comes back to me.
I think what has rocked my world the most this week was thinking about being 25 and where I was three years ago and how I never ever ever could have guessed where I would be three years later. I felt quite old for a moment and felt like I have aged about 15 years in only 3...and then I started thinking about my future and wondering what it looks like. I have no idea about mine. Do you know about yours? Like, even though there is no way for us to know unless God reveals it to us supernaturally, we still fret and plan and try to make it turn out the way we would like.
Plans aren't necessarily a bad thing, although when taken outside of faith and in a control mentality they certainly can be. I just see a big question mark when I look at my future. I think I know what's coming next, I think that I'm moving in a couple of months, I think that my boyfriend is coming soon to visit, but what do I know?
You know how in life you go through those times where you kinda get scared because things are starting to go the way you didn't dare to hope or dream? I'm in that moment now, and I start just waiting for the bubble to pop. (not what the doctor ordered, so I don't suggest you try it!) But, I don't want to live that way, I want to live believing that good things truly could be in store in my life...that I could live a full life on this earth, with adventure, love, and stories...but we don't really know! Everyone's story is written so differently. Oh the mystery! Only time will tell :)
So without further ado, I guess what's left is to dream away, plan if you feel led, but don't worry, and enjoy the story as it unfolds.
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